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Name: Julia
Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 9/23/1989
Gender: Female
Interests: Whoa! i havent updated this in 2 years... Okay! for music I like any type of Rock, Classic Rock, Alternative, Just not Metal lol I hate rap, and country, But I love groups like the Beatles, Puddle of Mudd, Led Zeppelin, Nine Inch Nails, Foo Fighthers, Def Leppard, Boston, Nirvana and a lot more .. lol um oh but im sorry i dont like emo bands, they whine too much..
For Movies, I like basicly Comedy and drama, some of my favorite movies are A fish called wanda, Date movie, Waynes World, Kung Pow, The Crow, Escape from New York, Harold and Kumar Go to White castle.. etc.
Expertise: Fooseball, challenge me and i bet i can beat you :-P lol, badminton, Astrology, poetry, stories, and ya :-)
Occupation: Student
Industry: Hospitality
Message: message me
AIM:  Kissmelmsweet89
Member Since:
12/1/2003
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| its now Febuary 27th and i am still with my lovely boyfriend Pete for over 7 months now :)
He has been the best thing that has ever happened to me.. I thought i loved my ex but it doesnt really count if all he used was recycled shit he had used on other girls.. lol Pete treats me with the most respect i have gotten in ages, Yes there are times where he has let me down but he always some how proves to me that he loves me so greatly that it over rules whatever he had just done, plus it has never been anything too serious I love him for who he is and everytime i try to think what itd be like to leave him for another guy and i cant because he has been all that i ever wanted and i Know that no other guy could ever possibly match up to him and i just love him soooo much with all my heart, and im just hoping that he is respecting that and isnt taking advantage of it because i have been broken in the past so my heart isnt really that stable anymore. But he has not broken my heart at all. I guess you could call him irrestable to me because everytime im with him everytime i talk to him on the fone i just feel such a strong connection between us and its so hard when he has to leave or get off the phone. And everyday im without him or i dont talk to him it is the hardest because he is like a herion drug to me, i cant get off the addiction! lol I love my baby so much and i really hope that he is the one for me because i believe it so much and he has proven to me that he does too and i cant thank god or whoever is up there enough for that. Because hes all ive ever wanted and i never ever want to let go of him. I love him so much and i mean that with all of my heart.
Alright lovers, thats enough of my love ranting ;)
<3 Julia
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| I'm 17, I still love my baby Pete so much, I made this when i was 13, I'm Happy, I'm getting good grades,
its a good year :)
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| It's September 12th 2006..................................hmm Well yesterday was september 11th and that was sad remembering all of that stuff :( But today I feel half good and great and then theres just one thing that reminds me of my past. I'll start with the good stuff... Ever since July 22nd I've been falling in love with my boyfriend Pete.. It's funny because I live in this white rich people town and he lives in a very diverse town. I wish i lived where he lived because everyone's more real over there.. like him. We listen to the opposite music spectrums but we dont argue about it , i listen and appreciate his music while he listens and appreciate my music.. I love him so much. Even though it seems like we're two opposite types it only brings us closer to each other. He's funny as hell, always makes me smile, cares about me so much, protects me,. does surprises that thrills me, basically he makes me the happiest girl in the universe. He's so adorable in so many ways its hard to explain. I just love all of him. Nothing at all is wrong with this guy, he's just the one for me and he's actually one of the most compatible sign with mine so no wonder we're meant for each other. :) I love him so much!!!! He's the first boyfriend that treats me like a real person, and a lady :D hehe The only thing that's really bothering me about today is that its the 12th , my last relationships 1 year aniversary, not like im missing him, just the pain he gave me is going back into my memory and its not really fun. Just makes me how stupid and gullible i am. That's why im afraid of tying this right now because i dont kno whats really going to happen next, if Pete changes his mind and goes off with another girl than my heart will already be torn up so much I'll just collapse .. but its weird because every guy thats hurt me is like pushing me closer to the edge of this cliff... and with Pete it's like he's the one pulling me back and saving me.... but i dont kno I trust him though... I really do.. that's how much i love him. | | |
| It's been over a month since I got heart broken and I'm doing okay. Yes there are times where I ask myself how I could of been so stupid to fall for him. And there are times where something reminds me of him and I get upset for thinking about him. But don't worry, I try and forget, and have been distracting myself from thinking about it and it's done me good.
The only bad thing that I got from that relationship, is if he was so convincing when he lied, how is it possible for me to truly trust somebody again. I'm so afraid I'm going to get hurt again. And after that relationship, I thought I was already dead. I just want someone to be here for me to help me pick up the pieces of my heart again. Yes it hurts me to put "again" but it's the truth.
A couple of weeks ago I went to disneyland with my sister and stayed at her boyfriend's beach house in Seal Beach. That four day weekend was really fun! And for the first time I had 3 hits of a joint and had a glass of red bull and vodka while watching Jay and Silent bob stikes back. It was verrry interesting hahaha.
I'm almost done with summer school and I'm happy cause it raised my english grades to B's :)
I'm just flowing with life right now and just trying to have fun :)
I'll update later
love, Julia | | |
| Today My boyfriend for 9 months broke up with me. He told me that it was because of the long distance.
Bull shit, if it was because of that he would of broken up with me months ago.
But he just gave up on me. Even though through the past 9 months all he was saying was how we were going to grow old together and how he would never leave me and how we were going to plan our life and that he would always love me.
He even gave me a promise ring saying that he would always be there for me and that he does truly love me.
.......And that was all a lie.
Maybe he didn't know what he was doing but to me that sounds like he was leading me on for 9 fucking months.
The thing that gets me , is that he made me fall in love with him. He was my official first love. But he didn't love me, and he couldn't admit that to me until now.
I feel as though I have been stabbed right through the heart with a big fucking sword.
To my friends I will act better and tell them I'm fine but inside, I will always feel this hurt because I have been stabbed in the heart so many fucking times.
How can I trust anyone anymore?
How do i know if the next guy will do the same?
How will i know if someone is lying to me.
He was so convincing,
in his voice you could hear how he meant what he said
Well hes a pretty god damn actor for that.
And maybe its also the fact that he just gave up on me.
I was willing to wait
He wasnt.
To me this is a whole nightmare that I cant get over.
Fuck this shit I already feel dead. | | |
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Hello, i dont kno how this is going to work o.O but im gonna give it a try! lol ....ummm....is this where you talk now?
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